It's strange how feeling depressed can creep up on you and take you by surprise sometimes. You think you're okay and life is . . . well, bearable and then ten seconds later, you want to cry.
Or is that just me?
I had a nice enough weekend. I had an okay-ish day at work. Then as I was walking home, the sadness hit. I left the office feeling fairly upbeat and as the walk progressed I felt worse and worse and worse. By the time I got home, I was utterly miserable. Quite a turnaround in forty minutes.
I've not cried.
I want to.
But it's not coming.
Yet. I have a feeling it's not that far off.
All I can keep thinking is "WHY IS EVERYTHING SO SHIT?" Why can my life not go to plan? MY plan, I mean.
How can I snap myself out of this? What cheers you up when you're feeling like a big vat of poo?*
*It's a bit of a disgusting image I know. But it's just how I feel...