I'm trying to play it cool here. Tell myself I'm not too bothered if he gets in touch or not, tell myself it's fine really . . . after all, I'm not really looking for a relationship right now, kinda want to be single and not have to answer to anyone.
(In some ways, I even kind of mean it. The timing isn't entirely convenient for me when I'm barely over the guy.)
Yet when I don't hear from this new one for almost three days, I worry that I won't hear from him again.
(Despite the fact he text me on Sunday night to talk about the "X Factor" result, just because he knew I watch it.)
(Also despite the fact I've been reliably informed that when two people go on a date or two, they don't always contact each other constantly. I'm just used to that from past experience unfortunately...)
And then tonight, while making (not particularly successful) chocolate chip cookies, he sends me a text asking how I am.
Which I don't notice for nearly two hours. Therefore playing hard-to-get entirely by accident - as if I HAD noticed the message straight off I'd have been trying desperately to restrain myself from replying and probably failing.
So I reply, nice casual, somewhat witty comeback to his text.
Now I'm wondering if I played the whole thing too cool.
Being inside my head hurts sometimes . . .