Monday, 31 August 2009
I GUESS THIS TIME IT REALLY *IS* IT . . .
Over the past few months, I've had the paranoid moments (brought on by my past experience) where I've thought "ah well, that's that then. It's obviously over" . . . and then been proved wrong.
This time not so much. I think I can safely say it IS over.
I didn't expect it to end quite this way though. Without closure of any sort. Without even confirmation. Mind you, if you were never officially "seeing" a person, perhaps it's okay to just ignore a person until they go away. It just seems strange when the last contact you had with them was arranging another meet-up.
I have wondered if there is something else going on that's prevented him from contacting me. But this seems highly unlikely.
I think I've had to just try and find excuses for him because it's so weird that someone I thought so highly of is actually capable of doing it this way. Weird. And unbelievably hurtful.
When I look back at how it all began . . . I honestly didn't see the end being quite like this.