So . . .first off, thanks for the links! I'm particularly enamoured with stumbleupon, so I will never be off the internet from now on.
Not so sure I will be blogging though.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE blogging. I love writing, I love sharing the stuff that's going on in my life, I love your feedback.
I HATE the haters though.
Those that I once cared about, that I maybe accidentally fucked over. I don't know how Im meant to make things better, but I know that they are apparently hell bent on fucking me over in return. It makes me feel that, despite the fact that I am not saying anything I wouldn't mind other people hearing, people are still determined to use my words against me.
It's weird isn't it? I mean, I KNOW that certain people I know in real life are reading my blog. I always have. Not only have I already supplied some of my friends with the URL, but I KNOW it's not exactly hard to find out these things. But . . . who knows? I thought better of some people, despite everything. And then . . .
No, I don't even want to get into this. I can't. I've kept it bottled up now for close on a year and . . . No. It makes me too mad.
Don't get me wrong. I WILL keep blogging. Just because I'm not inclined to right now doesn't mean I won't. Because it's a free fucking country and I like to do it. It's just that right now I'm inclined to just rant and rant and RANT and I'm trying to be a bit more positive these days.
In the meantime . . . I've got to stop feeling guilty. Two and a half years of being on the wrong side of a grudge (a deserved one, admittedly, but not one I caused out of maliciousness)? Long enough!!! Two and a half years of dirty looks and hearing nasty comments about myself? DEFINITELY long enough.