Last night, tired though I was, my brain just wouldn't shut down once again.
I'm finding this happening more and more recently and it's mentally exhausting me. The problem is, I don't really know how to stop it. I find myself revisiting nice memories, and that makes me nostalgic. But then the bad memories come and they make me angry . . . because with bad memories like this, how can dwell on the good ones? How can I wish for things to be different when I already know, deep down, how everything will turn out.
I keep wondering if I had done things differently, would my life be different right now? And would I even want it ro be? My head is definitely feeling a bit fucked right now. Hopefully normal service will resume later.
No "Lessons from the Weekend" this week as I don't really feel like I did enough to warrant a whole post on them, but I'll probably be back later - I'm back in hibernation mode, albeit only for the rest of today . . .