I like blogging.
According to some people, that makes me sad and pathetic and psychotic. Perhaps I am. But it stops me from being even more so than I could be. It's basically my therapy.
I have been through a lot of late and personally I believe I have every right to vent my feelings a little. The main reason I decided to keep blogging in the first place is because I spend way too much time in my head thinking, trying to work out how I could have changed things, could have done things differently, beating myself up over the smallest of things. And I don't always want to talk my friends' ears off about the same things over and over again - as great and supportive as they have all been to me, I don't want to push their limits. At least by blogging I can talk about my emotions, and occasionally get some advice from people who don't know me, and are enough removed from the situation to perhaps give me a non-biased perspective. It helps me to remember there are other people going through similar things to me, whether it's feeling a bit alone or depressed, angry about something however inconsequential, dealing with a relationship breakdown, or having just lost a family member. More importantly, they can choose whether or not they want to "listen" to me. I'm not forcing anyone to read my blog.
I'm not going to apologise for this. I don't see why I should.
And I'm sick of people trying to use it against me.