It's no secret that I do have a tendency to complicate things within my life rather than make things easier. I don't know if I have something inside me that compels me to do this, or whether it's just some sort of fate. Maybe I secretly want to create drama for myself. Maybe it makes me feel like my life is more interesting.
Obviously, right now, I'm sitting on my own with a can of Diet Irn Bru and my netbook on my lap, thinking about how I should REALLY go to bed and get a decent night's sleep after last night's extreme insomnia bout, and how I really should pack my bag for swimming with my sister after work . . . which isn't obviously particularly interesting at all . . . yet I've just typed an entire paragraph about it, because that's how I roll and it's honest and I can actually BE honest about that, rather than cryptic about the actual complications that have cropped up in my life and I have actually CREATED - possibly due to feeling rejected by one person, and imbibing slightly too much rose wine a few nights ago.
And this particular complication - I thought it could be problematic on a short-term basis, but actually . . . there were a couple of events today that made me wonder if it could actually spiral out of control a bit and REALLY tangle my life up. Hmmmm.
I'm going to try not to let it, and it MIGHT not actually get to that point anyway depending on how I tackle it, and whether there's actually anything to have to worry about. But I guess I'll have to just wait and see. And possibly, in the meantime, work out ways to make my life SIMPLER rather than more DIFFICULT than it already is.
But I guess, much as I bemoan it all, at least it gives me new thoughts to take my mind off the old - at least for now - and that can only be a good thing I suppose . . .
What about you? Do you try to lead a simple life and feel it often spirals out of control? Do you believe we're in charge of how complicated our life is?