I'm really not coping right now.
I made it to my GPs finally last week. My symptoms don't seem to match up with any specific illness or condition, so they gave me a month's course of anti-spasmodic medication to see if it helps at all. (You gotta love the guesswork involved in diagnosing someone, eh?) Although things have been a lot better than they were, the pain is still coming and going sporadically. The discomfort is decidedly less intense though.
Of course, now I have the health thing a WEE bit more under control, I can focus on the being alone thing again and that sucks.
I'm miserable and I'm not sure if I can trust anyone with my feelings again. The rejection just hurts too much.
I know it will get better with time. But right now . . . I just want to curl up in a ball and howl.