Thursday, 26 November 2009
THAT LAND OF MAKE BELIEVE . . .
Sometimes in my head, I'm in that alternate dimension where things go to plan. Where the stuff I imagine happening actually comes true.
Especially when it comes to guys.
Sometimes I really wish that he would come back to me, beg me to give him another chance. What would I say? I'd like to say I would say no, or at least not make it easy for them. Sometimes, though, I'm not so sure.
I'm sure we've all been there at some point or another, right???
Recently I'm not really sure what I want. I'm not really sure what I NEED. But sometimes I would LOVE the chance to turn it all around on him, to throw it back in his face.
I'm talking about The Guy.
Remember how I thought I was over him? I thought maybe Cute Guy from the Party could help me forget him?
Turns out it was only a temporary fix.
I know we inhabit two different worlds. I don't want to hang out with his drama crowd, It's just not me. He never seemed to want me to hang out with them anyway. I don't think I'm ambitious enough for him either.
I don't really think we're meant to be together. I used to. Now I don't.
I just wish things could be different though.
Either that or I wish he would beg me to take him back and I could turn around, strong as you like, and refuse with my head held high.
I don't feel very strong right now, mind you.
But I'm getting there . . .