I honestly am not sure how much more of this I can take.
I actually wanted to cry when I got home tonight. Because I had such a bad day, have had such a few bad weeks, and I don't want to go back. And I was so utterly RELIEVED to not be there anymore.
I feel like all I do is try and it's always for nothing. I'm so de-motivated it's hard to KEEP trying but I do. I'm not even sure WHY I try anymore.
And I'm so stressed. My stress neck (lovely dry red patches of skin - soo attractive) is back again. Which always happens at times such as this.
I'm being pushed out. I know this. I've known it all along.
But it still hurts all the same.
Apologies, just needed a quick vent. I'm feeling utterly miserable and drained right now. I'll probably be back later though. I will need to post something more cheerful in order to cheer myself up.
Right now though, I feel like wallowing for a bit.