Sometimes I can't decide if it amuses me or irritates me more that certain people try to judge me for being some kind of slapper. Because it really couldn't be further from the truth . . .
Pretty much a year ago I was absolutely gutted when the guy I was seeing broke up with me for the second time. Most of you probably know this. I actually could not even think of another guy, couldn't even LOOK at another guy. I just felt so hurt, so let down, I don't think I could say I was heartbroken, but I felt like I had lost one of my best friends. Which is really what hurt more than anything. I think after that I just thought "screw it, I'm not getting involved with anyone ever again." I know, it's a total drama queen reaction, but that was the point I was at emotionally back then.
So fast forward a couple of months and I met that guy in London. I liked him. Nothing happened. But I thought - thank god, at least I can actually FANCY someone again.
It took me another good few months though to even KISS someone else. And okay, since mid-November I have averaged, oh, a snog a month. Which may seem out of character for me, but is it really? It's not really anything I wasn't doing back in my single days originally. I think there are a lot of single people out there who average a similar amount, if not more.
Is it something I should be judged for?
Perhaps I haven't always made the best choices of who I have kissed. But then, do you know something, WHO THE FUCK HAS??? The fact of the matter is this . . .
It is absolutely no one else's business who I get involved with and who I don't.
I am SINGLE.
In case some people were not aware of this, this means I have no attachments. And therefore, if I WANT to go and snog someone, whether it be a random, a friend of a friend, someone I work with, or ANYONE ELSE, I can do so.
Obviously there ARE limitations on this. For example a few months back a guy kissed me and I didn't realise he actually had a girlfriend until afterwards. I may have a slight misguided history of getting involved with guys in relationships (although I have never cheated myself) but I'm waaaayyyy past that now cos I've seen lots of people getting hurt because they were cheated on, and I'm not willing to do that again. Because I would hate to have it done to me.
But in general? I am free to snog whoever the fuck I like.
The funniest thing of all? It's not like I'm going around sleeping with all and sundry. I've never been like that. (Sometimes, I kind of wish I was, it would probably make my life easier.) I've not actually had sex in over a year! I've only slept with three guys in my entire life! I'm not exactly Miss Superslut 2009!
The phrase that springs to mind here? The one about people in glass houses and throwing stones.
Or perhaps the one about the pot and kettle?
That's all I have to say.